i wanna throw my heart

Have you had your heart broken for several times..?
it should make me stronger..
but it isn't...
the more wrongs that passed in and out in my heart
makes me more weak and vulnerable

its like the broken pieces are slowly grounded

it was easier to trust when the feeling is young
but when i feel that the emotions are getting deeper
it seems that..Im already anticipating a disaster

hard to trust
hard to step forward

this feeling just keeps me..
utterly wordless..
the more i open myself
the more I know
that I could be possibly get hurt

I have cried a hundred tons of tears
being lonely and sad

but out of this sadness
still...i haven't chose to open myself
and let somebody love me
because I know eventually they will break me

this poor heart..
I want to throw it out of my body
and give it somebody who will fix it
i dont want to worry anymore
i dont want to get scared anymore
scared of being hurt