i wanna throw my heart

Have you had your heart broken for several times..?
it should make me stronger..
but it isn't...
the more wrongs that passed in and out in my heart
makes me more weak and vulnerable

its like the broken pieces are slowly grounded

it was easier to trust when the feeling is young
but when i feel that the emotions are getting deeper
it seems that..Im already anticipating a disaster

hard to trust
hard to step forward

this feeling just keeps me..
utterly wordless..
the more i open myself
the more I know
that I could be possibly get hurt

I have cried a hundred tons of tears
being lonely and sad

but out of this sadness
still...i haven't chose to open myself
and let somebody love me
because I know eventually they will break me

this poor heart..
I want to throw it out of my body
and give it somebody who will fix it
i dont want to worry anymore
i dont want to get scared anymore
scared of being hurt

Good Luck!

if the man is in a race of moving on

he must've been the winner..1st place

within one week

he already got his replacement

my God! He must've been really

that frustrated to have somebody to love

desperate...

I just hope for the best for the GIRL and him

i hope they work well together

though i think that the girl is just for rebound..

i hope not

By this time

At this time..

I was happy
I was having a hard time calming myself
I was having fast heartbeats
I was carrying a smile before i go to sleep

and now he's gone
there's none..

Life has become
soundless and boring
I felt like I have no reason to smile
while there are so many reasons
to feel happy...
but no matter what i think..
its just...
me and him GONE

That's our story...
and nothing follows...
the story ended..
but the feeling didn't

I was told to move on
and now..Im having a hard time
smiling

I chose to be happy..
I am forced to wear a fake smile everyday

He was my reason...he disappeared

THE END

He told me he's tired :(

Is this really  not worthy fighting for

after one month being with him

he finally burst out that he was tired

explaining his side

and

adjusting

the next day...he told me he missed me

I was confused...

"Why can't I get you off my mind???"

I told him.."you dont have to forget me.."

and He got my wrong signal

He still thinks that Im still "On" with him

but actually...that day he gave up on me

was the day I turned "Off"

Its been 3 days...

Feelings change.....I also get tired

Its been a month...

I can remember that we had the same fight

over the same reasons

He never understands that I dont want to have sex with him

because Im not ready..He would give me explanations...

tell me that i have a crooked mind

tell me that im immature and childish

We have come this far (one month)

because he would always tell that he'll wait

but it never matched his actions...

We part ways

and I hope I get to pass the most grueling part of moving on

and this where it starts

the most pleasant feeling in this world
is he loves me..and I love him